Category: Confusion
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View from my shRoom
Fear, freedom, friends, fortune, favor, force, front, f**k, face, faith, fame. Fierce is the name of the game. Time does not matter for it is forgotten. F**k time, it’s not mine, it’s for another person’s mind and rhyme. Wait for me mom, I love you but you are so fast. Forever I look for you,…
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Christmasless
Dear MOM, If ink was the blood you needed to live, i would have written the poem of infinity. If thoughts would bring back the smell f your cheeks, i would have rethought this entire existence a million times over. If prayers would bring back a sight of your glossy smooth skin, i would have…
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Embrace
In the midst of chaos, internal and external, i see myself gaze at the noise around me, without any purpose or reason. Nothing is justified beyond my capacity to comprehend it with my limited sense of self and sense of consciousnesses. I find my struggle for success or self sustainability contradicting. There are things i…
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Anatomy of Death
Sunday – may – 21 – 11:39am Where does one’s spirit go? There you are, the person I love the most, I’ve idealized the most, I’ve crystallized into a goddess, I’ve engraved in my heart, soul, thoughts, deeds and every waking moment of my life. Lying there, breathless, soulless, smiling, sad, as if you’ve mourned…
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I waited for you
May-18-2017 – 6:05am In bed, head deep into a dream of inverse reality. I waited for your smooth sway in the house makes up my oxygen to stay alive. I waited for your soft voice that song the eternal remedy for my life despair. I waited for your soft touch to tap my shoulder and…
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The Question Dilemma
What are you creating? moments of happiness for yourself, for others, things, energy, power, time. It does not matter. The essence of things is not what you think it is, it is in fact the complete opposite of everything you ever thought it was! If you ask how and why, existence will tell you not…
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She and i don’t exist
As i sit here, staring through the window of infinite opportunities, i reflect about the unlimited possibilities that escaped my existence; then i realize that i am simply haunted by time. I walk through the garden of my mind and i see me looking back at a person i wanted to be but is impossible…
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Homesickness- It keeps on coming back
Each time i’m alone, soul tired and mind intoxicated by the prolonged dreams of progress, it hits me, like a withdraw from a bad addiction or a strong headache after a bottle of cheap scotch. Shame on a country that separates parents and siblings, friends and memories, loved ones and chirpy feelings of soul surrender…
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Trickle down the boredom stream
Plotted against myself i find it difficult to gather the inner crush i had of the person who touched and changed my nucleus. The despair of a fear, and the dread of a bloody tear, the yearn of a smile and of attention i have had for a while, are caging me behind invisible bars.…
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When death pulls you down!
At an unusual instance, my eyes shut, my body drifted, and my mind lost itself into a 15 seconds of a state of semi death! As i laid on my bed, breathless, eyes open, unconscious, my soul felt an unusual pull towards another state of existence, or a state of non-existence. Memories did not seem to…
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Three dimensional dream
Dreaming of a memory of a dream that never came through. Light years are closer to destination than a lost memory of a dream that was forged through inspiration, irrationality, materialization and weird emotional undecisiveness. If castles are built for kings by overworked and underpaid slave workers, dreams are made for one’s soul by the substance of underdeveloped rational,…
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Sneaky Cripples
Corrugated by the explosive character in me, i propel changing the signs that cross my thoughts once a second to transform itself into an obsession of an unsanitary characteristic of a mind held behind bars, begging for freedom i ought not know how to handle. A crippled man who know how to want to be…
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Crushed
The ticks of the clock falls from the flow of eternity and breaks, awakening the deep worries buried within the deepest corners of the ignorant soul. The consistent tries to make thing work in a fascinating way has turned into an effective tool to craft lines on the present so that tears find their ways…
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Stagnant
The water does not choose its course, gravity does. And so we are coursing through our lives as chosen by time and the ultimate master of creation; maybe the masters of creation! The way things are made in this world is to keep going, as stars race through the black skies, the wind travels through…
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Twilight of a nightmare
Bare naked, faked emotions dress the dark gloom that hovers over the silent lover who awaits seldom moments of seclusion infused with random omens of beauty which escaped its meaning and dwelled an unparallelled existence that attaches itself to parts of humanity to only shine when we can’t define the crying of nothingness which we…
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Running
Time is running away. Souls are crippling with burdening sensation of inadequate illusionary responsibility. All fades away except the responsibility of stripping our angry ignorant spirits in front of the undermined amazing creation. Escape to the ends and corners of the desired lost fate while your present becomes unrelated to a state of confusionism and hate. i…